We haven’t had a proper conversation since two days after that happened. It bothers me, yes, but it doesn’t hurt me. I don’t have much expectations of you anymore.

I’m so glad I have Stephanie. She’s the only person in the whole of Singapore that I can talk to without thinking too much about what I say. I used to be able to do that with you. But now, I have to think before i talk. Make sure I don’t say anything that could be misinterpreted. 

I think you still expect me to be the one who initiates all the conversations. To be the one that walks up to talk to you. I used to be that person in our friendship, for lack of a better word. Not anymore. If you want to talk to me, be the one who starts the conversation. If you won’t, I’m just going to assume that you don’t want to talk to me. And my impression of you will keep sliding further down the drain.

But kudos to you for your lame attempt at an apology today. Much more than I expected.

You’re just like the rest of them. Sensitive and petty, taking friends for granted, having the attention level of a kid. 

You convinced me that you were nothing like them. That you cared about not hurting peoples feelings. That you would never be a bastard to a girl. 

I actually believed you.

You’re just like them.

After everything you promised, you still take me for granted. Maybe even more so. 

Hey, let’s ignore the girl that’s in love with me and hurt her one more time by doing everything I promised I wouldn’t ever do again. She’ll always be there to pick up my crumbs anyway. She can’t bear to lose me. Right?

WRONG. This is going to end soon. Especially if you keep behaving like an immature, centre-of-attention jock. You hate it when I call you that. But sometimes, no, a lot of times, it’s true.

And when it’s over, I’m going to tell you exactly why i got over you. Maybe that will be the end of our friendship. But that’s fine. I’ll find myself a real friend, someone who actually cares.

Slept practically the whole day. 

but feeling more optimistic now. about everything.

Saw you today

Pretended everything was okay.

Could see you didnt know how to react when you saw me, so I made things easier, acted normal, pretended that nothing happened, that I didnt call you just last week and confessed. It worked, I think. Everyone thought i was ok, even you.

But was I?

I don’t even know anymore. Sometimes I feel I should just have kept mum. Because in another 3-4 months, I’d probably have gotten over you thanks to your jerkish behavior. But I didn’t. I spilled. And now I just have to deal with the consequences.

twism:

If the words of MSN are to be believed, Justin Bieber has been spending a lot of time at the Playboy Mansion. A source revealed that Justin is “obsessed” with going there, and would even visit the place to hang out with Hugh Hefner. That same source went on to say that Justin is invited to every party and he has permission to show up whenever he wants. Justin? Hanging out at the Playboy Mansion? Ha, doesn’t all this sound simply ridiculous?!

its normal cuz he’s one of the girls TROLOLOL

It’s hard to compete with small, pretty and spunky.